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Sometimes I’m a pretty dumb…

March 12th, 2006 Posted in Mistakes | 1 Comment »

I made another fairly large messup today and I’m rather made at myself for it. Today I had to return the cans and bottles to get the money back because recycling is cool, and free money is cool too, even tho it only comes in nickels.

But ok, I noticed that Katie had left her sunglasses so I figured I would be nice and return them. For some reason, I decided the best way to handle it was to leave her sunglasses on the car.. why? I don;t know.. it must have been my stupid part of my brain thinking at the moment. I should have asked her if she wanted to go for a walk or out to get some food or just given them too her at the door or something… grr.. if i went back in time I would have done it much differently. Given, I had a decent amount of HW left; I know I could have spaired at least an hour to chill with her. I’m just dumb like that, I tend to think of the right thing to do after I’ve already done the wrong thing or the moment has already passed. Yupp, another messup for me today. I better add that to the list. Because idk, i feel bad that she was bored inside all day. Now that I can drive it’s substantially easier to get together and such. I know that summer is coming which means she’ll be off doing her thing so I won’t get to see her as much, but she has fun… and seeing her (or just knowing) she’s happy is what truely counts. And today, I passed up an opportunity to make her happy; which is something i don’t feel good about passing up

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Loosing

March 10th, 2006 Posted in Mistakes, Problems, Studio, Stupid People | 1 Comment »

For some reason I was sad yesterday, I really don’t know what made me feel sad but I didn’t want people to see me like that so I hid. Yes, I know that’s the childish thing to do, but I just really didn’t want to deal with certain people that frustrate me to the extreme. Well, when I finally gave up on my childish hiding game and came out it didn’t go as planned. Everyone ended up annoyed at me which didn’t make me feel any less sad. Again, in a continuation of the loosing, I couldn’t figure out what to say so I just kept saying sorry.. but that seemed to bounce off or something..

Overall, a pretty bad day. I noticed that I can loose at just about everything if I don’t try at all, which is not something I want to do. But there are some people that just annoy me to the point I don’t want to bother fighting with them, tricky paradox indead.

Oh yeah, it didn’t help that I had a huge english project on Othello due Friday, but I got that done.

One thing that makes me happy is knowing that I’ve can always talk to you about however I feel and stuff. Sometimes I can’t explain it very well, but I’m glad you listen. Thanks again.

Ok, breakfast time… I hope it’s something yummy but I’d bet on oatmeal and poptart. I wish mom would let me get my own food sometimes

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College… Misc… Yeah

March 7th, 2006 Posted in Problems, Stupid People, Uncategorized | 1 Comment »

Just a quick little update, nothing really exciting going on…

Well.. College update. It seems like that is the popular question to ask. Yes, I am going to college. Majoring in Computer and/or Electrical Engineering. No, I cannot spell engineering to save my life :-P. I have been accepted at the following: RPI, WPI, RIT, WNEC. Leaving only UMASS on the “to hear from list”. This leaves me with the question of “did I jump high enough?” and “could I have made it into better schools”. *cough*MIT*cough* [no matter what you say about the suicide rate]. Well, the simple answer is not so simple, I know one part is my parents don’t understand college very well, and think I’m not as smart as other people because I don’t talk “geek” 24/7. But I think that being able to humanize or simplify things is just as important as everything else. Because if you truly understand it, you can teach it to someone who has no clue… ok, off the soap box. I’m leaning between WPI and RPI. Originally WPI had me with some nice merit $$$ and a shorter driving distance but this weekend RPI send the merit $$$ to complicate things… any ideas? advice? thoughts? opinions?

Oh, yeah… to all of those people who have yet to apply, please apply to your dream school. If $$ is a problem, find me and I’ll spot you the $60 or w.e it takes; because that was probably one of the dumbest mistakes in my life so far… luckily there is grad school.

Other news… I have a huge headache and i feel sick at the moment, so i’m eating reeses. Oh yeah, I’m stressed. Or so my face is telling me.

This week is just going by sooo slowly, it’s only Tuesday and I could already go for a weekend, I just need to destress or relax or something but english project eagle project vhs masenior organic chemistry IPv6….

Well, I better go to bed, catcha in the morning!

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