Brian's World

Soliloquy of a Lost Cosmonaut

Editors Note: This is part of a blog series published very rarely, the last article was written by this author in 2006.

It’s quite unfortunately to cut oneself free.  You loose the tether and gain the world but where does this really put me?  Providing but many an eternity.  To figure it out I had no choice, there is no in between.  If I was on earth I’d walk the line, teetering, totterings from side to side.  Up here its not that easy, maybe its down here, I’ve lost much track of time.  Its not easy to come and go as a I please, you cannot sample with the powers that be.  Regretting much, or missing lunch, I’m barely late for tea.

Some time has passed since I’ve taken a good shower.  The most recent mornings have been rushed with evacuations, exams, and other important situations requiring my attention.  Unfortunately this week is planned out much the same.  I need some time to think and regroup, restrategize, and figure out where to move next.  Certainly  I cannot be burned again.

I find it most effective to remain objective, focused on the long term goals but sometimes the short term solutions just seem so appealing.  Last night I almost found myself overtaken by one, luckily this morning I wrestled with my logic and but it back into its place, the dumb ideas you should avoid box.  I’ve found over time this box fills up far quicker than the “good ideas & plans to keep being worked on” queue does.

They say what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger.  I disagree with basic analysis that.  What doesn’t kill us forces us to adapt.  Only if we adapt, evolve, and overcome are we stronger.

I would like to talk to you.  You know who you are and how to contact me.  Our discussion could be quite lighthearted, and you may learn some things I’d rather not share.  I’ll be ready when you are.