Brian's World

Coke / Withdrawl

Hello. This blog will be scattered as ususal. Lets drop right into the thick of it.

I’m listening to Virgin UK on myTunes right now, its a cool British station I listen to when I want to hear some different music and improve my accent at the same time. They were playing a Cold Play song and I heard a wierd beat coming in from the back, it sounded like Green Day’s Time of Your Life. It turned out to be a slow fade to Green Day (is that one word or two?) and I instantly started counting down.

For anyone less familiar with what I do, I count down songs and “conduct” them. Its a skill I developed as a director and something I do when I feel like it.

As I was saying I was counting down and hit the mark when the lyrics start, a good job considering I’ve counted this song maybe two or three times before in my life. I started “singing” along to the song because I’m familiar with the lyrics and my roomate is at CS. (I put singing in quotes because its very very bad singing) And my eyes started to pulse and I could feel a spout of depression and sadness come over me.

In the ending of the Tiger Times Story, I used Green Day’s “Closing Time” because I know “Time of Your Life” is generally used a lot at graduation and I need to be different. They both carry similiar messages. For me, I had the Time of My Life in the Tiger Times. I never considered it a club, I would call it more of a job, duty, or passion. For me I never knew, or gave any thought to me minus the Tiger Times. What would I have if there was that void in me? I think it would be a pretty darn huge void.

Tiger Times has done more for me than taught me how to make an S-Video breakout cable or Chroma Key. Tiger Times allowed me to make new “friends” in High School, gave me an outlet where I could open up and be not so shy and more the way I like to be. Tiger Times introduced me to my first and only girlfriend, Ms. Katie. Tiger Times ended up getting me my first job and first domain name.

All this thinking puts me in a very sad and sorry state, thinking there are kids right now in the High School putting together a show for tomorrow and I’m sitting here starring at a Computer Science project.

I didn’t mind graduating High School, I passed my classes just find, but I do mind giving up something that means a lot to me. No, not as much as Katie, but something that’s up there on the list of important stuffs to me.

Maybe I’m having directing withdrawl. When I was counting down the end of Green Day I know I cracked my back when I twisted it.. definatly a sign I’ve been waiting far to long to do that. I dislike challenging myself with IEA instead of media studio problems. Things I try hard on are things that I care about, IEA is not. Give me a video mixer and tell me to make it work and I will.

The semester here is almost done and I have tons on my mind. I know I’m not content with my level of involvement. Ideally I’d like to be able to be in SH daily from 2:00 – 3:30 where I could *dare I say* serve as Tiger Times advisor. Of course that would be a lot of driving or something, an operational impossibility. Not only would that satisfy my Tiger Times void but it would help to satisfy my desire for Katie when I’m very far away.

RPI TV is holding elections soon, and unless someone pulls the rug out from under me I think I’ll run for something. My current calculations say that there are three to four people that are not freshmen and active in the group… or at least active enough to currently be an officer. I don’t want to outstep any of them because I know they’ve been involved in the group more than me. Where to run, where to run…. I have a few ideas in mind, but they all depend where other people run. I could start low on the totem pole and do something like News Manager or a “Manager” of some type, or i could jump up and try for a VP position if no one was running. I think if I was VP of Programming I would approach the entire show concept differently, I would push shows out faster than the dismal rate of current. I’m very disappointed to see one news show per semester. I would also make a push for different content distribution. My theory is… WRPI is something that the “administration” of RPI (senate, E-Board, etc) is concerned with because they have a broad spectrum of listeners. Would this loose “sales” of show copies? Well I say lower prices and only sell on DVD. It can be done for us through an online company = less work for us. Just upload ISO and images.

I think RPI TV isn’t watched very much, I’d be willing to bet money on that… but if somehow it’s opened to a larger community it might grow. A larger community = attention of adminstration = chances of larger budget = studio. My one restrictions is weekend. Weekends for me are when I break from RPI and do non-RPI stuffs, and I wouldn’t want to serve in a role I can’t fill completely because of that. I have until Dec 5 to decide.
The other thought is web stuff. I’m still very much interested in my club I mentioned in my previous blog, but if that can’t happen I might see if theres anywhere else I can extend what I know.

When I got sad after hearing closing time I knew I needed a coke. While directing in the Tiger Times I needed some form of caffinated beverage to get the job done. After a long day at school I was tired and I had to run around like a chicken with its head cut off from 2:00-3:30 so I would drink coke, sometimes ice tea. If I don’t drink a coke (or a pepsi.. but thats nasty) I get a major headache by dinner time. I think I’m addicted. I don’t care.

All in all I don’t know what to do. I just felt I should share so that.. well I dunno why I write but I do. Now everyone who wants to, and can type the web address and read can know my story. I need to go start encoding.. time to get the Tiger Times Story online.

And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe we’ll find better days
Cuz I don’t need boxes wrapped in strings
And desire and love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe we’ll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight’s the night the world begins again
Cuz tonight’s the night the world begins again

When will tonight start?