Let me fill you in on what’s happening:
My Dad: My Dad’s operation was a sucess and he’s recovering comfortably. He will not be coming home tomorrow as planned. I guess something was leaking, no real details, but he’s staying another day at least. Hopefully he comes home Friday.. possibly Saturday; I guess they’re waiting to see what happens with everything.
Living home alone is tricky. Especially with a brother that isn’t great at taking care of himself. Being a boy scout, I know how to camp, light a fire, etc, but I also know how to take care of myself and get things done alone. My brother requires todo lists, constant reminders, etc.. I get very tired very quickly. Maybe parenting isn’t for me… lol… ya think? I can’t think that far down the road…
Schoolwise: God everything is stressful at the moment. All my AP classes are in cram mode. Seriously, we’re taking the exact same style test in like every class. I swear, it’s like 4 hours of test material and we’re expected to do just as much at home? I’m pretty much dead. I can no longer look at an AP Chem Open response question without immediately getting sleepy. AP Stat makes me fidget like a first grader in a spelling test. AP English would be ok if he didn’t give us 20 other things to do at the same time, and if I wasn’t already tired from the others. AP Calc is decent, just because its easier and by that point I’m too tired to care. Luckily the test are the next week so I can get that over with. Maybe I’ll get a 4 or 5 somewhere. I’m aiming for a combined total (4 tests) of 15 points.. definately do-able… but in the mean time my brain has just given up. I’ve never had senioritis, but APitis… maybe so.
I just need to relax and de-stress, and the home situation is not helping at all. Mom calls me all lonely on the phone, Kevin is like a pet downstairs, all while dad is sleeping in a bed. I don’t know of too much in life that could be harder than this. What complicates things is the fact that I really don’t know what I’m doing. If I was a “full-fledged” adult I would understand what I’ve setup, not what my dad setup. For example today the yard ppl showed up and I was confused, dad knew everything about his yard but I knew nothing…
So this weekend I might just set up a tent somewhere, any where… and get away from it all. I most certainly want to chill with people because certain ppl relieve my stress soo much.. but they’ve been ill to top it off. Get well soon by the way.
Ok, I need to do the following:
- Clean Up and Pack backpack
- Get stuff ready for the morning
- Make Kevin’s todo list
- Tell Kevin to go to bed
- Turn the lights off
- Lock all doors
Kevins Todo list will look like this:
- Pack Backpack
- Do dishes
- Lunchmoney (which I’ll get out for him so he doesn’t forget)
- Clean off the desk we’re moving for dad
- Alarm Clock
Ok.. I’ll remember more later…
JK.. I don’t need soma, I know that spending 5 minutes with the best girl on the face of the planet.. even just walking down the street or around the neighborhood, would be better than a kilogramme of any soma.
Good night world, because I know no one will say it to me in person.