Shame
January 16th, 2006 Posted in ProblemsLet me start quickly recapping “torn”. It turned out the entire situation resolved itself and I didn’t have to do anything. Nothing ended up happening (as I kinda expected) so it was all good.
In other news, Cotillion ROCKED it was beyond super fabulous to the state “almost indescribable”. You can read my official review of the night on myspace which is linked here: http://blog.myspace.com/bamnet
Ok… now time for the heavy stuff. I was on one of my more frequent websites (urbandictionary.com) and decided to search for a term I had recently become quite familiar with. Well, I found the term very easily and read one defination. Ok, sure that’s a little strange but it’s just one definition. Lets keep reading… UGH. I’m on like the 8th definition and they all are including or implying this one thing.
It’s a very awkward to explain because of how vague I’m trying too keep this. I could be very blunt and just say it but that is tasteless and potentially vulgar.
I’m kinda in two states here.. the first one is like, well, seeing as that is normal it is to be expected so maybe I shouldn’t be embarased.. but the other half of me is still if things were reversed, I’m not sure I would be ok with it.. kinda awkward and uncomfortable I imagine. But then again if it’s accepted as common then there is nothing wrong with it? I’m not sure, and I don’t think I’ll ever know.
It’s one of those things you can’t control at all, all you can try to do it hide it and that doesn’t even work very well.
But what’s done is done, and I’ll apologize for it. Sorry.
Well, I’ll provide a little more information. I read the definition (one of them) and was like, wow… I’m guilty of that. I wasn’t sure what to think of it… at the time I was rather embarased but after reading the definition I wasn’t sure if I should be embarased or accept it because its the “norm”.. I don’t know. I don’t think I’ll ever come to terms with it, but I dunno…